i wake up late today...huhuhu...why of all people why i have to dream of dis guys my high school frens! KAINIS! okey readers i tell u about it,hihihihi...im not malu about ol dis coz its a past oredi...when i was in my high school i only have 1bf nd it last for 4yrs quite long huh? den i have a group of friends who r u knw... wanna be popular at school but dey not dat B-i to me d thing is being wif dem.. u become other person...i actually meet him bcoz of my bestfriend actually its her ex-bf nd den when dey breakup we become close but u knw my bestfren is ok about it nd den he become 1 of d barkada(gang) our relationship bcome ok ok ok lah...we still shy to each other for 1year i actually dun luv him but i like him its like juz a crush coz his cute,shytipe,have gud brains,nice hair,nd abit dark complexion we col it moreno in phil. nd so, dat 1yr is i knw boring for others...nd den my bestfren nd d gang meet dis girl in ourschool she was bcome one of us so ders a 3girls now in our group..she was like i describe as d saying goes "dont judge d book by its cover" shes cute not dat preety,look innocent,gud brains too,secretary on her class,have a sad family background (actually she's a bitch)...so u see we all pity her my bestfren mother is so nice she take her as 1 of a family its like adopting her oredi..den wen d tym flies my bestfren wasnt dat close to me oredi dey bcome close insted nd wen dat day we argue i found out dat dis girl stab me in d back telling lies bout me she make our" bestfren frenship" juz bcome frenz...so we all still frends but den i notice dat both of dem bcome so cold to me...i stop seeing dem 4awyle coz im not dat happy wif dem anymre specially to my boyfren...wen our 2nd anniversary day i go to our tambayan (hang out place) nd der is everybody not expecting me dey all look surprise its like i was a ghost everybody is inside d house watching tv expect for my bf nd dat girl...so i ask my bestfren wer is he? she dint answer me instead dey all look in d room, d room is open though but no light...one of my fren go inside nd tell him dat i was der so he go out wif her! she still have d cheek to smile at me but i also stupid i dint get angry or wat i also like juz smile nd tell my ex hapi anni. nd den i ask him in private why is he inside wif her he sae dat he was sleeping he dun knw dat she was der to get something...nd so i believe him. it dint stop der i oredi knw dat she like my boyfren as we found her diary its all about him inside. i still continue seeing my friends nd my ex but u knw ull always feel out of place wif dem so i juz stick wif my ex...den ders d tym dat she told me i was being cold to dem i was like shock dat my bestfren tell me dat! im d one who suppose to say dat...but i cant get to defend my self as i dun want to fight wif her nd to loose my friends u knw...i was so naive nd never stand up fr myself dats wat my other frends sae, its true wen i was in my high school days i was like dat bcoz dey make me like dat! nd den bout my ex again,my bestfren mother invite me for a chat as she dint see me coming der for quite wyle oredi,she nd my bestfren nd dat girl was der she tell her dat i have to knw something den dis girl told me dat she nd my boyfren are seeing eachother behind my back, so i ask her u luv him? she sae yes nd den my boyfren comes i ask him nd dis tym i was angry coz its like i was d third party...she keep telling me dat i wasnt looking out for him nd saying dat she knws dat i dun luv him...she sae dat infront of us,i ask him if he feel it dat i dun care about him u knw wat he did? he juz stand der nd kip quiet.so i walkaway nd go back ask myself if i do luv dis guy i dint get d answer nd still dun knw if i do luv him dat tym,so i stop seeing him but we dint breakup either i juz dint talk to him d weird thing is im still friends wif dat girl even though inside me i want to slap her oredi.like wat i said im scared loosing my bestfren so it dint stop me frm coming der..nd dey kip telling me dat he dint talk to her oredi coz she found a boyfren oredi..nd den we continue our relationship till we graduate frm high school...my mother put me in different university as she sae she dun wan me to be friends wif my bestfren anymore,so we go seperate school nd den dat start again dey told me i have no tym for dem anymre coz of my new friends nd den me nd my ex stop seeing each other again.as i was busy on my thesis...nd wen i finish i start coming der again...chit chat wif dem...den wen its like our 3yrs n 1/2 mth we together got dis outing to go swimming...i was der as he said dat i was his partner,she was der wif d others but after d outing is d shocking part d next day my frend told me dat she nd him r actually together i mean its like bf&gf...so i dint get d chance to confront dem coz my mother dun wan to see dem wif me...so i let d matter juz like dat nd tell my fren to tell him dat we oredi breakup.few mths come nd i find out he nd her breakup...he den come to our house nd tell me dat its over between dem nd wan me back! i told him to fuck off! wat is he thinking? its like im a toy. den d next day i found out one of d guy in my class likes me so i desided to take revenge on my ex i told him yes i forgive u, for few months we go out nd finally introduce me to his parents nd i go on a date too wif dis guy who likes me nd den i invited him to our house so every body will knw den d news flies so fast my ex knows nd he come drop by one day wyle one guy is der too...he ask me why im doing dis to him nd saying all his friends knws about it nd feel ashamed...i told him dat wat i feel last tym is not even close as dis. he sae he regret it oredi..d last tym i come back philippines my friends told me he was in jail coz he joined dis praternity gang.wat i regret only is why i dint breakup wif him d 1st tym he hurt me nd regret being such a looser infront of dem before..im so lucky dat i go different university nd meet d most nicest friends i ever encounterd being stuck wif dem make me grow up nd be myself nd not always pretending...there's alot good memories on my college days but i dun knw why i dint dream of dem often...i miz dem so much as much as i miz my family back home....now dat i found a wonderfull husband who cares nd luvz me i pray to god dat he will luv me for d rest of his life.....I LUV U BY !!!! muackzzzzzz...
